My Boring Crazy Life :D

Marks a special day in my life. By that I mean the introducing of the idea of what V from V for Vendetta keep telling the people throughout the movie and graphic novel. I love everything that this movie stands for. Freedom from the government and how corruption is everywhere. Going to bed while watching this movie.

Now that I got the Sidekick 4G I think I’m going to be on here more often. I missed having a keyboard and doing all the social things I was able to do before. I might annoy a lot of ppl with all updating I’m goiing to be doing, but I miss it a lot and its what I like doing.

Is all I have running through my had. Best night ever. I got it good.

It’s been months since I last posted anything on here. I really need to find time and get back onto tumblr. Miss it so much.

I feel lost. Not in the sense that I don’t know what to do, but in a sense that I’m lost within myself. I feel like everything I do turns out to be bad decisions and I can’t go back from the outcome. It sucks to say that, but I need to say it. Its the only way I know that I know what’s going on within myself. All my mood swings, all my overactive emotions, are from within and I don’t know how to control of all. I feel like km losing a bit of myself very slowly and I’m never going to change. Maybe I do need to stop myself from all the tthings I do right, maybe I don’t. I wish I had the answers, but that would ruin the surprise of life. I know I have tobsit and wait for everything to come out in the end, but I don’t want that, and that’s what kills me. That’s why I feel lost, that’s why I wish I knew the answers so I could know where to go from here. One day I’ll know, but just to let you know, I’m lost and I don’t know where to go.

I haven’t done shit today, but some how it turned out to be a good day actually. Had some of that good good, went to a wwedding reception and stuffed my face, and now heading back to the dorms to chill the night away. Good times today, good times.

So I have officially applied for my press pass for Lollapalooza. I’m hoping that it gets approved cause I would love to experience this event. So many bands are going and so many different things are going on. I need to go and experience this. Maybe I won’t so who knows. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for it to get approved. Wish me luck!!!

     Its funny that it’s taken me this long to realize that I don’t need someone in my life. It’s hard to admit to myself, but I really don’t. I’ve tired before and it just keeps bitting me in the ass, and I’m done with it all. I need to worry about me, and that’s it. That’s why I’ve decided that I’m going to leave the states. I need to move somewhere I know I will fall in love with the place instead of people. That’s why once I’m finished with my bachelors I’m going to move to Italy. I’ve had it with everything that keeps happening here in the states. 

I feel depressed. I’m just going to say it straight. I’ve been feeling this this for a while, and its really getting to me. I feel like everything is getting me down, and I feel like all my friends can’t stand me anymore. There’s just so much going on in my head, that I just feel like I really need to talk to someone. I don’t know what to do anymore. I really need someone to talk to. Thank God nobody really reads this.